I received this most sacred, intimate and deeply moving e mail from a client who is working through the grief of having lost a baby 6 years ago.
I share this with you in hopes that it will speak to any places within you that have been carrying pain of any kind over the years. Be it regarding a relationship, parenting, your sexuality, marriage, career, we all carry pain until we find the transformational tools to transform.
It is my sincere desire that my client’s brave and courageous sharing will spark an awakening within you.
My Dear Baby Boy,
I thought that I’d grieved you and moved on, but now I see that I grieved you and then shut my heart off from you to protect me from all of the pain. I sheltered the little girl inside of me and I never understood why your little soul came into my life and left way too early.
Now I see that even with all the pain I felt, I missed your purpose. I missed your lessons for me. I was too wrapped up in the grief and then the business of life to learn from you.
Each child is sent to be our teacher. I am just learning your lessons now. You are my greatest teacher trying to teach me my worthiness. You wanted me to see that my fight to get you and then, your early departure were both here to teach me that
I am enough just as I am.
,,, That I don’t need to be fixed.
I was so wrapped up in getting pregnant with you that I never truly enjoyed it. Then, when you were gone, I blamed and shamed myself for not creating a good enough home for you.
I believed that there was something deeply wrong with my body because at first couldn’t get pregnant and then when I did and you left so early, I couldn’t keep you safe. I don’t think I ever healed from the pain.
I’m seeing now that the day is coming to release myself from all of the pain, the shame and the blame. From the darkness comes the light, and the light is starting to come now.
The light is for me to learn your message. Please find a way to teach me now. I’m open. I’m listening. I’m ready to open my heart and find compassion.
I’m ready to learn your lessons of worthiness and that
I’m enough exactly as I am.
Thank you my dear baby boy
Love,
your mommy
This is the Transformational Power of Group Coaching and the sacred space we will be creating in my
On Line Group Coaching Intensive and
I am delighted to be offering a
FREE On Line Group Coaching Master Class
THIS WED FEB 19th at 6 pm PST
(Replays will be sent even if you can’t make it live)
Witnessing someone being coached is a powerful way to transform. I do hope you’ll join me.
There’s much more information in the flyer:
https://courses.suzilula.com/p/masterclass-groupcoaching
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Another FREE Gift! Radical Self Love for Moms!
I was fortunate to be interviewed by Amanda Marie Masters, Co-Founder and Owner Awake TV Network.
We spoke on the importance of Radical Self Care and Self Love for Moms! Lots of practical tips. Enjoy, everyone! Let me know what touched you!
https://awaketv.vhx.tv/videos/elevated-living-with-amanda-masters-s1e9/
Much love,
Suzi